Today I Choose to Trust...

To trust that my God has a perfect plan, that his timing is always best and that he will provide for my every need.
I am a planner and a list writer. I love to have a plan. Every week before I go to the grocery store, I have to sit down and make my plan. I have to plan out my menu for the week and write my shopping list before I can leave. If I walk into the store with no plan, I feel lost and I usually end up sending way to much money!
I think there is something to be said about having a plan and setting goals for ourselves. The problem enters when we stop trusting in God's plan and start trusting in our own. "Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God" Psalm 20:7. In today's day we probably don't spend a lot of time trusting in chariots and horses, but there are plenty of other worldly things that we place our trust in. We place our trust in having enough money in our savings account, in having a secure paying job, in material items to fill a void and in people. The thing about all of those is that they will fade, they are not eternal and they will let us down. The only one that we can put complete trust in is God, for he will never leave us nor forsake us! Proverbs 28:26 tells us "He who trusts in himself is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom is kept safe." I don't know about you, but I don't want to be a fool! I want to walk in wisdom and trust that my God has bigger and better things planned for my life then I could ever imagine.
A few years ago God really started to challenge me and the way that I was praying. I realized that I was praying God into a box, I was praying for only what I thought was possible. God gently reminded me that he can do far more than I could ever ask or imagine, so why was I only praying for what I thought was possible. It was like God was asking me to ask big and ultimately to TRUST him!
So, I started to pray and to pray big. At this point in time I really felt like God was asking me to step down from my job as Jr. High Director. I loved this job, it fit my gifts well and it was fun! I knew I needed to work, but I wanted to work at home so I could be with my kids. I remember sitting in church one Sunday morning and I felt like God was telling me, "You have to let go of where you are now, so that I can do something bigger in your life". So with no job in the works, I put in my notice and began to pray. It was a huge step of faith and trust that God would provide. And what did God do? He provided the perfect job, one that I love, that fits my gifts so well and allows me to work from home. I had to stop trusting in myself, in what I thought was possible and start trusting in God's big plan.
Jesus tells us in John 14:1 "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me." Whether we are in a time of trouble or a time of peace, we can trust God. We can trust him when we are afraid and we can trust him when things are good. Today, I am challenged by Proverbs 3:5, a very familiar yet encouraging verse. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding". I want to trust in the Lord with all my heart, even when I don't understand. To trust that my God not only has a perfect plan for my life, but for my husband and my kids. I have to trust God not only with the hard things in life, I have to trust him with EVERYTHING! I know my God is good and I put my trust in him alone!